unfair?

我知道我們之間不可能，我也不會勉強什麼，但是一切都發生得太快，我很想了解到底是怎麼一回事，可能你不喜歡我了，可能你遇到你覺得更符合你條件的人，這一切都是有可能發生的，但是我覺得你不應該逃避我，因為我至少可以知道這一切的發生，逃避是不能解決問題的，不管是面對感情、生活或工作上的事情，這都不是應該有的態度。你或許想喘息一下，想清楚一點，但請你想清楚後可以跟我說到底是發生什麼事情嗎?要不然這樣對我，實在是太不公平了。

Day 4 after we were over

Today I still think of him sometimes. I want to text him, but I know it's not right. Be dumped by the same person at the second time How stupid I am. I dont want to be together anymore, but I still think of him. Why am I stupid like the person who is afraid to face me and tell me that he doesnt like me anymore? Maybe he has others Maybe....................... Everything is mistake. It shouldnt start in the beginning. I want to post my sadness on my facebook, but I cant. I only can toughen up and stop thinking, but it's really hard. Gosh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dear God Can u ask him to text me and explain what happened about everything? Suddendly I feel empty in my heart. so empty~~

Day38

Today I told him we r over. He didnt answer me anything. This made me feel sad. After chinese new year, we were back together. Just after one month, I can feel his impatience with me. Still dont know why. My friend told me he's just not that into me. Maybe I should make my heart dead. Then I wont get hurt again. Do i really like him? or just like the feeling? or just want a company? I AM LOST. TOTALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Marrige

It seems so close but so far away actually. "結婚像是找個生活上的夥伴，應該是對彼此的生活都有加分的作用，這樣結婚才有價值。" I love this sentence. This is actually I want. Now I'm almost 28. I really have to learn how to let go. That's the way set myself free. I wish I could be a big girl like Éponine who is so strong and brave. Life goes on. I cant stick in this for so long. :)

Day 3

Day 3 Huh? In the morning, he texted me, but this time I didnt reply. I know I'm trying not to contact him. Good Job! But still would think of him sometimes T T I'm really pathetic.

This is Day 2

This is Day 2 I try my best not to contact with him actively. But when he contacted with me actively, I broke the rule I made. Again, 我又被牽著鼻子走. 我好糟糕~~~~ :(

No need to contact

Today is 2/5/2013 . I make a decision which is that I won't contact with him actively. Today is the first day. I hope I can forget him as soon as possible. This is the only way to make me move on. I guess. I can do this. Dear God please help me. I do need your help.