Will u still love me?

Sometimes I still get the massages from him. Those massages are like knives slowly and softly hurt me. And sometimes make me remind him. What a fool! I guess I still want to heard something from him bah. That’s why I still don’t block him. These thoughts make me like a crazy girl. How stupid I am. Still want him back? Even though I know this wont happened. No happiness. I’m so stupid and stubborn, Gosh! Get some sleep bah. Recently I met another guy. This man seems nice. But I still have some trust issue. If I let this feeling out, I may scare him away bah. This isn’t me. I feel painful now.