6/2, 2013

Yes. This is the day. This is my first time. I don't want to use the term "LOST" because I should see it as a progress. LOST is so pessimistic. Everything happened so fast since he broke up with me. I had experienced a miserable month, and I decided not to live like this anymore. And then fall into another one so fast. Sometimes I just don't know what I am doing. That day, I didn't say no. I just let it happen. Maybe he's asked me many times, and I don't want to see him disappointing. Maybe I just want to let it happen because of my ex? Now I know I am over thinking again. Why cant I just lay back? and feel relaxed? It's my personality? Probably bah (It hurt hurt hurt) (I like the way he hold me :)